While It Still Is

I should be at a loss right now. I should be putting that panic button and pounding on heaven's door to rescue me. I should be running away, far away from this place where I am.

But I am not doing any of these. Surprisingly.

I am still in a steady state.

Or I am in a state of denial.

But while it is still good, I am taking what I can get. And when that time comes I do need to hit that button, I pray that someone will be there to come running after me.